sadness covers me like a blanket
03/9/26
Almost immediately after I finished updating my log for friday, I got a text from a very close friend of mine, completely unprompted. He doesn't want to be around me or even talk to me anymore and I don't understand why. I've spent most of the weekend wishing for the day to come when this pain ends. Why do these things keep happening to me? What am I doing wrong?
I am sorry for the lack of progress on the gallery. It will move forward when things stop hurting so much.
It is Friday
03/6/26
It's Friday. No weekend plans as of yet, but that does mean that I finally have a day to do almost nothing, which is something I haven't had in a while. I'm looking forward to sleeping in and getting some of my writting done. I'm also pleased to report that I've made real progress on getting the gallery working, I just have to get some of my art actually uploaded first. I'll also be uploading more of my writing; I'm considering making sub-folders for different series. It will depend on how I'm doing over the weekend how quickly this all gets done.
The weather here has been unusually warm. I remain skeptical about whether or not spring is really here yet, or if we're still in a season I refer to as "UGH".
UGH is neither winter or spring, but the season in between in the two. The weather is unpredictable in temperature, yet consistently grey and wet, and also often windy. It is too hot to be winter, but none of the spring foliage, except maybe the scott's broom, is blooming. All the trees are bare. It is cold in the morning, hot in the afternoon, and muddy all day. Any clothes that you could possibly wear are going to be a little wrong for the weather, except maybe rainboots. This is the nature of UGH, my second least favorite season.
What leads me to believe that UGH might be over is that the Tulip Trees are starting to bloom. I hope they aren't early this year.
Back in Command
03/5/26
Greetings! I'm finally back. After the literal worst year of my life, I'm finally back. I"m still not doing as well as I could be, but I've finally worked up the courage to come back to updating this website.
I would first like to appologize to any frequent veiwers of this page for being away so long. But after a year of losing my long term job, the death of my pet of 15 years, multiple health scares/illnesses, working some of the worst jobs of my life just to get by, grad school falling through, the woman I was seeing ghosting me for no disernable reason, and several other awful happenings, I appreciate your understanding in this matter.
I have gotten another job, one that is considerably better than my previous one. I am still trying to get into grad school. I will be updating the site more frequently from now on. I will be adding the gallery as promised. I'm going to try and move out where I currently live this year.
That's all for today.